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On watching a colleague teacher humiliate and deeply insult a pupil….

23 januari om 15:05
Hi sweetie,

When I look through your eyes I can see the horrible slashing out, the out-raged pain that inevitably takes its place in it, the devastation it creates……..for those living in that time/space reality.

My classroom life is my separate universe, more or less. The “real world” spinning rapidly off its axes, I sense a readiness there to being slowed down and softened up, listened to. It is wonderful to see a flow, a movement away from this madness, and taking a natural course to creating a ‘separate reality’ of compassion and loving mindfulness in the here and now of our daily work, a breathing space……a different perspective, o, yes please……

You know what you do best, what is the Essence of the exquisite, divine instrument you are. Recharge yourself every day with that Deep Longing looking for an exciting date with Ultimate Knowing, and store it in your big, big heart.

At any moment when you feel your heart wants you to speak, it will make you Know the words to resonate truth, and therefore bring relief…..

Release your tension, release your ‘right’ and their ‘wrong’, the arguments and judgments. Let go, let God…..

The perky, bright, authentic, lovable, wise, witty, weird you in all its glory will know to read the signs within.
They will lead the way in your dreams and waking hours: through your school’s corridors and hallways, parting the crowds like Mozes did the Red Sea.

Inner signs will pop up and come in more steadily once they realize they are appreciated and more frequently called upon. Your Helpers will jump up and gather around joyfully.

Find your balance, rise above duality, and Speak free from judgment.

The entire Universe is geared up to help you cleanse and release all that keeps you in separation, for we are all One. That usually means a thorough mental sanitation is in order.

Can you see where “they” come from and leave them on their path heading for disaster, while staying focused and on track yourself?

You could go to the child that was verbally brutalized and share what you have found out about it in your heart. Use the tools you’ve acquired, and the wisdom you’ve gathered and recalled in going through so many experiences these past years.

Your heart will tell you. Love all that you have become, all that has contributed to it, all those who played their part in you being fabulous in the here and now.
Whether loving you, or presenting themselves to you as an absolute breathing bag of shit. You are a marvel because of all of them. Shit makes crop grow, and you carry a wealthy harvest.
You can love every shit-head for that, including your own shit-headedness that caused pain to others.
The cycle is nearly completed; we are leaving this place in ever increasing speed. All that is Not Love will be irresistibly drawn to the Light to be cleansed, to joyfully “lighten up”. The brighter you shine, the more moths will circle the flame. Don’t go chasing them. Trust them to burn themselves up.

As I am still human I can really enjoy that thought, knowing that I am a divine work in progress that will ultimately embrace all jerks, assholes, dick-heads and needle-brains as Other-Selves.

Ohmmmmmmm……

C’mon girl, you can do it. Give ‘m heaven!
Love ya,
S

Hi Stella!
I just wanted to take a minute to update you on my life.
I’m back at C* College now. It’s very strange being back- I feel like I never left. When I tell people I was in Amsterdam I feel like I’m lying.
My friends are great. They’ve matured but they’re still just as awesome as I remembered. I’m also making lots of new friends, which is exciting.
My classes have been fine so far. Very few classes are offered on gender and sexuality, but I’m working with what is offered. I do wish there were more interesting classes in my field.

The only bad bit is that I’ve found myself in an annoying situation with a boy at my school. In short, while I was in Amsterdam we began talking really regularly. I thought we had connected but a few days before I returned to school he sent me a message saying he wanted to keep things “light and casual”. I later discovered that he had a girlfriend (who he recently broke up with) for the majority of the fall semester.
I feel like a fool for buying his lies and trusting him. I wasn’t too enamored, but I did like him. It makes me question who I can trust. It’s also annoying because now I don’t know how to deal with him- I see him around campus all the time. I know he’s no good, but I’d gotten pretty attached to at least the idea of who I wanted him to be.
Anyway, other than that I’m doing quite well. Although I miss Amsterdam terribly. I just want to ride my bike and eat a “kaas soufle” and smoke in a coffee shop. Oh well.
I miss you!! How are you doing?
-D*

Hey H.,

Thank you for your load of links. Most of them I know from other sources. I am more active in the scientific field of whistleblowers’ verifiable accounts and live registration of speakers on big conferences. I find it easier to digest and select material that way.

It can be quite devastating to process all the info. In the end it means that we have been lied to (by the ‘powers that be’) in order to be exploited and dismissed. We’re the Planet of Slaves, the Planet of Duality; we are allowed to develop only as far as it is harmless to our “Masters”. We all are, to a certain extend, the little doggie in front of the gramophone horn, listening to an invisible entity telling us what to do, when we are “a good boy” or “a nice little girl”. We are brought to obey by ever more aggressive means (CCTV, tasers, intimidation and secrecy, certificates and bureaucratic terror….

The crucial issue is: do we loose ourselves, our mental and emotional health and wellbeing in fighting this process, or do we play the game on a totally different level? Or do we engage in a struggle for power, thus acknowledging that we perceive them as having power over us?
Quantum physics teaches us that manifestation is preceded by intention, attention, and focus. What you pay attention to grows bigger, and as a consequence we are all responsible for the consensus reality we live in.
As a consequence we can all change this reality by changing our perception.
I am certainly not the best, well organized teacher you can have. And at the same time I know I have been the best teacher for some in my world, at the right moment in time.

I have loved all of you as a source of thought provoking insights, as catalysts for my beliefs and convictions. I thank you for that, cause in that respect you have changed my life, touched my heart, even sometimes in deepest desperation. Only when we admit at times that we are lost, that we no longer claim to know, and ask for the wisdom of our heart, we will be enlightened. That simply means that we can shed the load we think we have to carry, the role we have to play ‘responsibly’. This reality has turned out to be a “Punch and Judy show”, choose your puppet, never find out whose hand is up your ass. “Silence, I kill you.”

That is very sad, of course, as I am a true believer in Love (the real stuff, not the romantic, distorted crappy soap hotch potch). I believe in self-empowerment, co-creation and the Unity of all that is.

There is only one way to deal with it: claim your brain, get informed, check and double check your info, be prepared to put everything you believed in upside down and to venture into a complete new world, a multiverse, where only few dare to go. Know that there is a complete army out there trying to fool you, spoon-feed you fear, hell and damnation through carefully edited imagery and sound to keep the crucial facts from you. Mainstream media will be too late for those who are in the know; believe me H, not much people really would want to know…..

There is no official institution to issue knowledge and certainties that are crucial to you. In deep meditation and prayer you will consult your heart, connect to the One Source and Know what applies to you. No one has to tell you.
The greatest gift you can give your children is the notion that they can connect themselves with their inner Knowledge, that they have an unmistakeable compass they can depend on. Their sacred space is accessible only by them, and you do not necessarily need to go to a mosque or a church or an imam or priest…. it is theirs. No earthly hierarchy (invented to keep you in place) can separate you from your Source.

Think for yourself: are you attracted by power or by love? Do you acknowledge your wife’s power (her right brain processes) as complementary to yours, or are they of lesser significance? Are you, in your marriage, an open yet protected haven of thought and discovery? Do you tell your family what to think, what is right, and what is the path to follow, or do you believe that within one family paths can lead to all directions but are safely mapped by the support and love of people who belong to your clan?
Are you yourself allowed to discover new insights, new paradigms, new venture points? Is an open exploration possible, or is it an immediate “clash of opinions”. And you know what they say: “Opinions are like assholes: everybody’s got one”.

When you ask questions, you are responsible for the answers you get, or else you are just engaged in babbling, venting opinions, passing time, be socially and politically correct. So getting answers is greatly depending on the questions you come up with, the sources you probe and the responsibility you want to take to act according to your new insights.

Within the next year we will see earth shattering changes, I am sure. Find solid ground in your true Intention (your deepest Longing, sleeping in your gut). Pay attention to the Wisdom of your Heart. (Your highest Knowing, accessed by circular breathing, is physically seated in a separate little heart ‘appendix’ consisting of brain cells, as was recently published in the Lancet). Choose your inspired focus and act accordingly. Let your inspiration guide you in the here and now. Mind your breathing. Look for the signs, trust your senses, transform sexual into sensual; it will give you a much larger playing field with a lot more fun in finding beauty and appreciation everywhere. Forget the result, beautify the process, create endearing and inspiring moments your kids will cherish, be their Magician & Fairy Queen….

When you kick the habit of obedience you will be less and less inclined to look for approval. You will start to enjoy making up your own bed as well as your mind on a daily basis. It is fun to be a constant work in progress, engage in some mental jogging (which includes reading with an open mind and an open heart, constantly challenging your sense of discernment and selecting discussion partners carefully), and to start following your bliss.
This can be a hell of a ride. You secretly foster the notion that, while observing from the sidelines you ‘see’ more than others do. Well you do, my friend, and at the same time “you ain’t seen nothin’ yet”.

So this is where I stand on this. This is the wisdom I have to offer to the world. “There ain’t no guru who can see through your eyes…” (John Lennon: Come together) Feel free to bin it if it does not resonate with you.

To me it is not the detail of the information; it is the cleansing process and the ever accelerating speed it is gaining. The daily challenge to be guided by love, to constantly perceive the “Other-Self” as a true part of me, to choose “Service-to-Others” in my daily undertakings and to embrace my errors and fuck-ups as bumps and potholes on the road to change.
Perhaps I will have to make the decision to ultimately venture off into the hills and shut up forever. Just sit and breathe and write and ask my housekeeper to bring me a pot of mint tea out on the terrace in the shade near the pool……..

Everything can become a reality, why not have a beautifully, unimaginably imaginable one!

Be blessed,
Stella

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